Waiting

My soul is grieved within me
The endless waiting
The relentless guessing
Has robbed me of my joy
Was it in vain that I have loved
In vain that I have cared
Your silence haunts me
Your indifference pierced my soul

I have sought to love
Thought it was complete
Only to find myself wanting
Perpetually waiting
A sign of acceptance
A simple word
Would have suffice
But there was none
Silence prevail

O wretched soul
How deceived you are
Was your love a bargain?
Was not your joy in giving?
Seek to comfort
Than to be comforted
To understand, than to be understood
To love, than to be loved
By self-forgetting you will find
A love so true, so divine

Here I am
Hanging on the precipice
Should I pursue, should I linger
Per chance you are waiting
For a message….a call
To know that someone cares
Will I ever know
Should I restrain myself
Will it cause you to grow cold
And put out the light in your eyes
like you did mine?

O the anguish of my soul

Nay, I will not
Be there a chance
A ray of light
Pierced thru the night
My call can bring
I shall risk it all
And make that call
To see that light continue burning

A love that gives
And not demand
Have I received
And so I freely give

composed in June 04